Friday, October 14, 2005
{ 5:41 AM }
life is so miserable. we just go on n on without knowing wat we want. we do the things we r suppose to do without wanting to do it. understand? i cant stand my chinese results. i noe lar..mani ppl r lower dhen me. okies..mayb u tink i shuld be contented with it. but ya noe how i felt? i was so sad lorx. i wrote as well as i can, but ya noe how much i got? i juz passed! 35/70. last time i li2 ti2 dhey oso gaf me 35, dhen now i didnt li2 ti2 yea..n this is wat they gaf me. i vv sad u noe? cant stand it. the heat; the pressure. i cried. i tot i'ld do well. juz like wat bi ran saed when she got baq her history. i studied. i studied vv hard. i dunt noe..i studied until i got headache, n i got this. is it fair? it's unfair! i noe i'm not suppose to conplain, but if u were me, i feel that i ont onli disappointed my family n myself too. oh mien..both my language not good. dhen o levels how? sure die larz. i sux. i noe i sux..i'm the most pathetic person on earth. i've got nth tt's good. eng was ok ok lorx. now i feel like crying again. haiz..went out with hui shan, minyu, bi ran n yee hui. hahaas..okies. planned to watch skeleton key de, but dhen in the end sth happened so we changed to the wig. later cuz the timings all not suitable for us, so we decided to go n watch skeleton key. but onli got the first row availible, sho we changed agian lar. in the end we watched red shoes. nc16 de. hahaas. i n minyu looked like kiddos lorx. i still wore giordano kids the t-shirt lorx. ok, but we managed to get in lar. while waiting we went to take neos. sho furni. when we went in rytes, this couple sitting at the door there kip "shh..shh" like tt. make all the noises. i dunt noe larz..cuz we juz got in mahz..dunt noe where to sit wat, sho..ya larz, make a bit of noise. a bit onli. they sho irritating cans? during the movie, the 2 person bside me vv scared. i tink they dunt even dare to watch lorx. hahaas.i shant sae who they r larz, but they vv cute! "the popcorn vv nice..the popcorn vv interesting." heehex..yap. half way thru, the handphone of tt man of couple who "shh..shh.." like tt started to ring. the ringtone sumore is jay chou de lorx. dhen i was like sayin,"huh? the movie got this sound meh? huh? scary movies oso got jay chou de song leh." dhen minyu was like..he called us to kip quiet, dhen he himself sho noisy.haiyoh. yap.later we went home. on the way i saw celeste on the bus. hahaas..went home together lorx. wat an interesting day, but oso a vv bad n unlucky day. i realli wish my maths n science will b higher lorx..it's realli miserable. but nevamind. no matter wat, we muz jia yous. treat this as an xperience. god sent down every xperience as a present for us sho that we'll be able to learn from it. i noe, but i'm not optimistic abt the future. i muz learn to be optimistic. (: juz do it! i cn do it n i will do it de!